More to come..

i'm dead tired.
no more WOOHOOs from me.

.. although i completed my 1500word proj. although i'm done with gisp and ca proj printing. although i feel safe.

but i havent start studying for quiz. and i dont feel like studying for quiz till tmr morning.. which i know is a sure die kind of thing.

i was damn tempted to go out today. but i know i cant.
i was damn tempted to sleep in the afternoon, considering i woke up early and reached home late last night. but i wasnt done with proj.
i was damn tempted to just hack care everything but i didnt have the courage.

i rly need a planner/organiser.. to organise all my dates. with all the proj piling in, endless schedules for diff kind of thing. what's more i'm not a very organised kind of person.

19Jan-lang arts proj and cdev proj due.
(wth, two proj due same day?!) and i only got 5 days+2nightz to rush out. working on wkends and can only do at night..
and another proj due on the same wk.

sometimes, it's rly difficult to struggle between too many things. sometimes i cant help but wonder.. why do i choose to struggle? yet, i know very well that i'm not one who'll stick to a boring/everyday routine life.

i can jolly well forget abt slping, forget abt the occasional tv showsforget abt msning, forget abt blogging.. after this post.
future entries till feb will be alll... very saddening, except occasional ones. i wish i can scream my lungs out. i wish i can just ignore all duedates. i wish i can just be irresponsible and ignore everything. just have things go my way.

...... but i cant do it. no matter how much the urge is.
i also.. cant scream because i feel my throat being sticky again. 痰alot. i cant risk sounding hoarse because it suck if i cant talk. it alr suck that i've no mood to talk to anyone today, although i'm home the whole day. esp since there's this ultra big ulcer in my mouth for no reason.

everything suck for me at this point in life-when projs are involved.
anything can irritate me now. anything can get me feel like slapping ppl now. because i'm quite an unhappy gal now :(

cant meet up with friends suck tooooo. esp since ivan reminded me abt how i promise to meet up 11wks before and havent done so. :( :(

i shall not curse so much. i didnt curse over proj today.. because i must be a better gal, somehow. a better example, perhaps.

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
i'm learning still..